Navigating The Journey

Today I stuffed myself into a long white wedding gown and emerged onto the worn gray fitting room stage to the audience of my mom, dad, sister, and overly tired associate. It was so surreal to be in a place that always seemed like a pipe dream and I'm glad I took a moment to soak it in. I found one dress that I liked but it was almost five hundred dollars out of my price range and I just can't justify spending that much unless it's for the good of our family. We ate at a really delicious vegan place which made me feel justified to eat way too many gouda flavored Triscuits after work tonight. Then, I drove to orientation for my new job at my former district. I step back into the old school as a new woman. I'm no longer willing to give my blood, sweat, and tears while administrators bat a blind eye. I'm no longer willing to just settle for mediocrity and I have career goals and aspirations to accomplish. There is so much growth possible in every day and being a mom re...

"Look at this way," he said, "You have two choices and they're both positives." Hanging up the phone, I felt immediately calmer and at the same time anchorless. I know that the time with my Dad on the Earth is entering it's sunset phase and I can only hope that when major life changes come my way, I can somehow embody the wisdom and calmness he consistently brings to the situation. I find myself in a job situation where I am presented with two awesome schools and opportunities. However, it is no longer about me and myself. I could take the full time job at the school I love but it would be a commute and less time with G. I could take a huge pay cut but be in a public district with benefits, no commute, daycare discount, and still part time. Immediately, I know what I should do. Just writing it out brings me clarity (REMEMBER THAT FOR THE FUTURE). Take the pay cut. Continue to work part time. Georgia will only be little once.

Alright so I didn't post everyday BUT I came back and that's something. I think so often I start things and mysteriously drop off when some element of my life gets slightly unhinged. The important part is that I get back up and start again as cheesy as it sounds. I feel like a cloud has lifted off of me and here I sit with a new version of myself. It's almost like I'm relearning who I am again with a little human watching my every step. Fascinating really. I had this terrible dream last night that our wedding invitations never went out, my dress was ruined, and I couldn't find Georgia so I just left work with no explanation and was walking the way back to my childhood home. Wow. The moral of the story is that I realized I could just go to a store like Anthropologie or Free People to get a dress rather than the whole fancy schmancy bridal store. However, it will be a fun ride. Today, We'll go to Home Depot to get teacher appreciation gifts and try to get a walk...