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Choices

"Look at this way," he said, "You have two choices and they're both positives." Hanging up the phone, I felt immediately calmer and at the same time anchorless. I know that the time with my Dad on the Earth is entering it's sunset phase and I can only hope that when major life changes come my way, I can somehow embody the wisdom and calmness he consistently brings to the situation. I find myself in a job situation where I am presented with two awesome schools and opportunities. However, it is no longer about me and myself. I could take the full time job at the school I love but it would be a commute and less time with G. I could take a huge pay cut but be in a public district with benefits, no commute, daycare discount, and still part time. Immediately, I know what I should do. Just writing it out brings me clarity (REMEMBER THAT FOR THE FUTURE). Take the pay cut. Continue to work part time. Georgia will only be little once.

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